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Nick, Very Deeply

8 Million Hearts, Book 5

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Nick, Very Deeply

By: Spencer Spears
Narrated by: Michael Fell
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They say soulmates don’t exist. But they’ve never met Nick Sawyer....

Eli: In my defense, I didn’t think I’d see Nick again. If I had, I would never have kissed him.

I got a fake ID because I was bored, not because I planned on meeting anyone. But from the moment I saw Nick - all tall, dark, and librarian-y, with hardcover books falling out of his messenger bag and eyes that made me forget how to breathe - I knew I needed to know him better.

So maybe I told a little white lie about my birthday. And maybe I went into the city again, and again, just so I could run into him. And maybe, on that last morning, I kissed him, because I knew it was good-bye.

Except, turns out, it wasn’t. Whoops.

Only now, I have to spend the rest of the year working with Nick, and it’s clear he wishes we’d never met. He says I have to move on, but the more I get to know him, the more impossible that seems. How do you move on from someone as strong and smart and sweet as Nick? How do you get over the first person who’s told you that you matter?

And what the hell do you do when, out of nowhere, he kisses you again?

“I can’t keep fighting this. I need you. I need us.”

Nick: I tried to keep my distance. I tried to forget that kiss. I tried to remind myself how dangerous it was, just being around Eli. How much I was putting in jeopardy.

I tried...but I never stood a chance.

Eli is everything I’m not. Reckless and wild, where all I’ve ever been is cautious. Open and loving, where I’ve only ever been scared. Willing to take risks, to be vulnerable, to be brave. I want to be brave enough to deserve him.

I know it’s wrong, but before I know it, I’ve fallen for this crazy, beautiful boy and his ocean-blue eyes. Before I know it, I’m kissing him again.

“I’d take it all back if I could.” That’s what I’m supposed to say. But the truth is, I wouldn’t. I would choose Eli every time.

Even if it means losing everything.

Nick, Very Deeply is book five in the 8 Million Hearts series. While each book can be listened to on its own, they're even more fun to listen together. Nick, Very Deeply is a m/m romance, full of snark, sweetness, and a healthy serving of steam. Teacher/student and hurt/comfort themes with a delicious slow burn. No cheating, no cliffhangers, and a guaranteed HEA.

©2018 Spencer Spearsq (P)2020 Spencer Spears Romance Heartfelt Feel-Good

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Spencer Spears has again performed magic with their fifth book in the 8 Million Hearts series, as with the other books in this series you can listen to it as a standalone but I can’t recommend the whole series enough.
Spencer has given us tantalising peeks into Nick throughout the series and his story was probably the one I most anticipated and I certainly wasn’t disappointed.
Nick and Eli’s journey is not an easy one but the sweet slow burn is beautifully written and with Michael Fell to bring the characters alive I have no problem giving this five stars all round.

Nick, Very Deeply

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I've been waiting to get Nick's story because he was so intriguing throughout the series. To say the wait was worth it is an understatement.

I've been waiting for nick

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While I liked Nick and Eli, I can't say I was all that invested in their story. The first 2/3rds got dragged a little too much for my liking and I found myself ffwding through it because there's only so many repetitive inner thoughts/conversations I can listen to without wanting to scream. Still, I kind of persevered and it got better in the last third of the book, even if by then it was really difficult actually feeling connected to the main characters. --- Michael Fell did a great job with the narration, his voice is very pleasant, and frankly, it was he who made me interested enough in finishing the book. So kudos to him.

Too long...

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Ugh. This book was so difficult for me to rate. After the first hour, I was so hooked. And then there was so much inner monologue back and forth between the characters that I started getting bored. And then it started picking up again 2/3 of the way through, but wasn't the ending I'd been hoping for. It just kind of fizzled for me. I don't want to give spoilers, so I'll just say, I don't see the relationship being what it was written as something sustainable. It made me sad, too, because I loved the entire story and the characters, it was just too much stuff.

Very wordy

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Okay, so this was my first Spencer Spears audio and I promise it will not be the last. Wow. Just, wow.

When I say forbidden love, I should be clear. Teacher/student is always a power imbalance. Depending on the age of the student, it might also be illegal. This book skirts that line. Eli is nineteen – a fairly mature nineteen – but he’s also a high school senior. For obvious reasons he doesn’t disclose this to Nick, and when Nick is put in a position of responsibility over Eli, he knows it’s wrong. How Nick acts after this discovery can be seen through several lenses and I leave it up to the reader to decide how they feel about his decision.

But obviously he’s not going to be Eli’s teacher forever and the question is – once the power dynamic dissipates…what then? Well, this is a sixteen-hour audio, so obviously they get together. And this is a romance so it has a happy ending. But it is, to be sure, a struggle to get there. Eli is a sensitive soul, and that called to me on so many levels. Misunderstood by his caring but clueless parents, his friends take better care of him. And when he and Nick connect? It brings a whole new level of love to his life.

But there are obstacles. Nick is reluctant to introduce Eli to his friends because of their former association. And Eli is planning to attend Rencliffe College in Minnesota. Nick has to stay in New Jersey for heartbreaking reasons. How’s that supposed to work? I wondered if the relationship might become long-distance for the time it took Eli to get a degree, but I knew his emotional state would be too fragile for that. How to overcome the distance? The differences? Nick is studying a Master’s of Divinity with an eye toward ordination. He knows religion is his path, and he’s had many placements, be he hasn’t settled on what a career might look like. Will he find guidance to lead him to a successful career path?

Finally, this is book 5 in a series and I admit to not having read the previous four. No worries at all. Aside from the fact Nick has close friends who obviously had stories of their own, I was never lost. Never at sea. This story is truly rooted in Nick and Eli. In them finding their own happily ever after. Finding a future that works for both of them.

I want to mention the firs chapter. It was an hour. Near the end of it, I’d decided the whole book must be in Eli’s point of view. Never fear, Nick eventually got his turn. But wow it took a while to get there. The structure of the book – with alternating POV chapters – worked, it just took time to settle into that routine. Just a heads-up.

Did I sigh happily at the end of the epilogue? I might have. Will I go back and pick up the other books? Of that you can have no doubt. Do I recommend this book? Yep. Whole-heartedly. And finally I’ll mention Michael Fell. I enjoy his narrations and he hit all the right notes with the performance. Yes, the book is long, but totally worth the listen.

When Love is Forbidden

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I really love this series.
This audiobook had me hooked from the beginning and I couldn’t put it down.
This is such a great addition to a really great series.

Awesome

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Nick and Eli's romance wasn't a fairytale, but their refreshing realism made me appreciate this story even more. I wasn't a huge fan of how this audio started--all the time jumps made me a bit confused about how Nick and Eli met for the first time--but as I listened further, I quickly became invested in this angsty, messy love story. Eli was one of those characters who made a lot of hasty assumptions and mistakes, but I could sense that his kind heart was always motivating his actions. It took me a lot longer to warm up to Nick, mainly because his repressed emotions and control issues came across as overbearing for the first half of the story. After Nick finally stopped freaking out about the conflict of interest between him and Eli, I started to see the kind man hiding behind his exterior. That being said, I have to admit that Nick and Eli's secrecy got old very fast. I guess I've gotten used to reading romances where the characters have to confront the things they're afraid of very quickly, and that was not the case for these men. It also felt incredibly unbelievable that Eli's parents were so absentee that they didn't notice him sneaking away to see Nick for months and months. I knew it was only a matter of time before everything fell apart for these guys, because a relationship based on secrecy is nearly impossible to sustain. That didn't make my heart break any less when these two were going through their roughest patch. I think the emotional turmoil was necessary to help Nick and Eli evaluate what was most important to them, but those chapters were downright depressing to listen to. Through all the ups and downs, Michael Fell's narration was on-point. In times where the actual words Nick and Eli were saying felt overly dramatic, Michael's expressive portrayal helped me connect to the story and see where they were coming from.

**I voluntarily listened to a free copy of this book. This review expresses my honest thoughts and opinions.

An angsty, messy love story

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As I've grown to love with Spencer's books, they're intense, complex, emotive and poignant. This one is no exception but in some ways I feel it fell a little short. Nick is so so caught up in how "wrong" it is to be with Eli that he leads him along with love filled breadcrumbs and keeps saying I love you to turn around and say but we can't do X,y or z. I really thought if was going to be a story where it was "so wrong" to be together, so they separate and it's hard, then Eli would right their love story and become a best selling author for Nick to read it and realise they were now ready to be together as equals and they meet again at a book signing and find their happily ever after but what I've read feels wrong. I didn't really understand Nick obsession with the "wrongness" of his relationship with Eli, I felt he was self sabotaging at every turn and it's okay to spoon and snuggle but not kiss. it's okay to say I love you but not go out in public or hold hands. These characters were so fantastic, complex and so very real I feel outrage at how Nick treated Eli and while I could feel their love and devotion it did start to feel "wrong".
I felt Nick was the one who needed to grow up and mature more than Eli and while I loved Eli so very much I feel like he could have gotten through his breakup. I felt like he was stronger than he was made to seem and at so many times I understand and felt his heartbreak but at the same time I wanted to say "you're better than this!!" argh!!!!
I guess you know a book is great when you're still, thinking, ranting and raving about hours, and days after you've finished it! I truly love this series and writing style but I wanted better for Nick and Eli even though I love them both 😍🙄 urgh all the emotions...

intense

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Nick, Very Deeply is the fifth and last book in the 8 Million Hearts series, and gathers all the threads of the previous four books and brings them together. Plus, we find out why the series was named 8 Million Hearts, which was a cute touch. Although I don’t recommend reading this book without reading the first four books previously. This is a series that works best if read in order.

Nick has been an important and pivotal character throughout the series: he’s been the voice of reason and a source of comfort. But, despite his calm and reasoned advice, we’ve known Nick has been struggling with his own issues. Nick has fallen in love with a young man he felt that he shouldn’t have: Eli. Eli, although an adult, is younger Nick and still figuring out his future, but he knows he loves Nick. It should be simple: Nick loves Eli and Eli loves Nick—but nothing is ever that simple and it’ll take major work from both men to overcome their personal issues and make their relationship work. There is a lot of drama and internal crises, but the romance and love shine brightly throughout the story. Plus there is a lot of cute, fluffy moments, funny banter, and steamy love scenes.

The audiobook was narrated by Michael Fell, who did a much better job narrating this audiobook than some of his other work. I can definitely tell Michael has grown as a narrator and his performance was really pleasant to listen to.

Finally It's Nick's Turn For Love

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Personally I think this book could have been cut by at least a quarter.
The story was good but so long winded, the first half dragged. The last half kept me going and made the book worth reading.

I liked the characters and the story, but found it was padded out far too much.

We do get a HEA.

Fantastic narration by Michael Fell.

Nick, Very Deeply
8 Million Hearts, Book 5
By: Spencer Spears
Narrated by: Michael Fell
Length: 15 hrs and 54 mins

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Brilliant narration but long winded book

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